tuesday , 24 - 10 - 10 , 12.00pm
i get a call from my sister..
"did u know ?? grandma already .............come home"
aku ?? blurrrrr...
mimpi ka ???
ndak selera mgadap lunch...
ndak sdh fokus dgn perbincgn....
senyum , say yes..... tu jak yg mampu....
balik ofis... ask permission from ma boss..
and aku pn mula mengs setelah hampir 2jam aku blurr..
aku ambil keputusan untuk balik wif ma kazen a day after..
samapi jak d sana.... aku rasa sumthing weird..
suasana agak pilu...
adegan ngs2.....
mata semua bengkak...
dat nite spend time wif nor..
d one whose taking care of her..
ms becrta tu... kami rasa mcm byasa jak ..
mcm dya ada jak d dlm sdg tidur...
seperti dulu....
no one can replace her place in our family..
no one can be so loving like her...
no one can be so sporting as a grandma like her
she left us ....
i hope dis ol are nightmare....
i try to accept ol dis ...
but i cant...
last aku cium tgnnya.. after raya... thanks god aku cuti lama..
spend more time wif her...
still remember when she say
"nenek da pnh rasa duit kak g , abg man , kak ida , abg yus... kaw lg blum "
dl masa kerja2 pat time always gak buy new cloths 4 her
bila da kerja d kk ni... blum ada lg..
terkilan sdkit degn permintaan nya..
malah dya smpt nasht aku lg sblm aku balik kk
btl kata my 1 , bila ndak da br terasa
hr ke3 dya dikebumikan...
baru aku kuat ziarah tmpt nya bersemadi..
dlm hidup ku... gmbrnya ada 2 3 keping jak dlm simpanan
begambr dgn dya pun ndak pernah...
ya Allah ....
padamu ku pohon ....
tempatkanla beliau di kalangan orang2 yg beriman....
